Change is all around us. It’s in the leaves that change colors in the fall and in the Christmas music that plays on my car radio (really Christmas music already? Thanksgiving hasn’t even passed yet.) It’s in the moment when our best friend moves away or significant other breaks up with us. It’s in the moment when we wake up and decide we want more for our lives. Change is inevitable and we could try to run from it and hide but change always chases us and finds us. Change shakes us until we throw our hands in the air and say “okay, I get it, I get it. You’re here and I’m here and this is it and this is now. I get it, Change, I get it.”
The scariest thing about change is the fear of leaving what we know. We graduate high school and college. We move to a new city where we know no one. We fall in love and break hearts and get our hearts broken. We get married and have kids. We leave the job we’ve had for years. People we love die and we grow old. You see, change is all around us and we shouldn’t be afraid of it. We need to embrace change and give change a hug, just like our parents would hug us when we were younger. Change is a constant variable in a world of the unknown. Isn’t that funny? The one thing that is always there for us is also the one thing that is always pushing us and growing us.
You see, I am not one of those to fear change. I fear settling. I am afraid that I will settle and I will miss the big, bright world around me. I guess that’s one of the many ways I’m different than most 19 year olds. I remember my parents getting divorced and that was the first leaf falling. My dad remarried and the leaf grew again. I voluntarily moved to a new state in the middle of my senior year of high school and more leaves fell. I remember the day I woke up and decided I wanted a new life for myself. I didn’t know how I would get it but I knew I could and I would chase it until I found what I was looking for. I could see the leaves growing around me again. When I hear people say they hate change, I want to shake them. I want to hug them and cry for them because darling you need change and change needs you. You need those leaves to fall off that tree but I promise you, they will grow back and all those vibrant colors will fill your life in ways you never thought possible.
Maybe that’s why I try so hard to help others. Because I know what I went through and I can see how those leaves grew in me and I want that for others. And maybe the reason I give so much of myself to the world is because maybe one day the world will decide to give back to me. And maybe somethings don’t get better but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and adapt to what we can’t. Maybe some of us will never be fully okay but at least we’re here. We’re still trying. We’re doing the best we can. That’s worth celebrating too. If you’re reading this, congratulations, you made it to today. You made it. I made it. And maybe the bravest thing we could ever do is realize that sometimes we need change, just like we need our favorite sweater on a cold November Day. Whether it’s a little change like a penny or big change in your life like a quarter, Change is Change. Love Change. Accept Change. Because that’s all that Change wants.